For the past year, I’ve been working pretty hard to lose weight and for a while there I was holding steady at a range I was content with, 130-132. Recently though, my numbers have been going higher and higher and I’m looking for a way to kick my butt back in gear so I thought telling on myself might help.
I’ve been thinking about why I’m not losing weight/holding steady anymore and here’s what I’ve come up with:
- I buy and eat chips. Lots of chips.
- I buy and eat cookies.
- I buy and eat ice cream.
- I devour big portion sizes at dinner.
- I eat way past 9:00 pm.
- I drink way too much sweet tea.
- I haven’t been going to the Y. (Maybe 3 times in the last few weeks.)
- I love me some beer/fancy drinks.
- Did I mention I eat way too much?
Before I started writing this post, I found my old post where I talked about wanting to lose weight. At that time (last August), I was happy with weighing 135ish. Now though, that number makes me sad. Now when I see that number on the scale, I immediately start self-loathing. It’s always been my worry that I’ll never be satisfied. That even when I do reach my goal of 125, it won’t be good enough. I’ve gotten close a few times over this past year (128 was my lowest), but each time I creep back up to the 130 range (and now 136). It’s ridiculous because now I feel that if I could just get back to 130ish I’d be happy.
I hope this confessional post will help give me the push I need to get back on track. It all starts tonight with dinner.
Are You Zhazha? 
Let me know what I can do to help. I do not think you need to worry but we both know you always will. I love you just the way you are!Enjoy the CD 😉