I have been dreading this day for quite some time now. Just thinking about it ties my stomach up in knots and makes me need to take deep breaths. I’m scared. Worried. Stressed. Doubtful. Questioning. Nervously excited. Scared. I know I already wrote that feeling. I felt it necessary to repeat it since it’s the one consuming me.
In a few hours, I will be registering Nia for Kindergarten. I have already downloaded, printed and filled out the forms. I’ve paper clipped them all nice and neat with all the other forms they require you to show them. Her birth certificate – check. Her social security card – check. Proof that we live in the school district – check. Proof that I am who I say I am – check. Proof that she’s had all her shots – check. My sanity and peace of mind – ah – yeah, nope. Those are pretty far from getting a check.
I’m just so apprehensive about so many things when it comes to this big step. I know I felt the same feelings when I registered her for Pre-K but now it’s official. Our baby girl is starting school- that’s difficult enough to deal with – but then there’s also all the judgments that surround school. I hear it all the time from other mothers…”We would definitely not send our child to public school. Private school is the only option for us.” But then there’s the… “I don’t trust any school system to teach my child. We are homeschooling them.” I know I shouldn’t care what they say but it’s hard not to let their attitudes put doubt in my head.
All I can do is deal with it the best I can and not let Nia sense my feelings. I want her to be excited and happy about starting “big kid” school. So far, she is and that’s really the one thing that settles my stress. I’m just going to take it one day at a time and that starts today. Wish us luck!
Are You Zhazha? 
Just remember to have fun and hopefully Nate will behave. Think of the kids that already love Nia next door and that they will be at school with her. They seem to be great even with their own adversity so the school has got to be at least pretty good. I love how you are so prepared, physically and so frazzled emotionally. I laughed at the paper-clip piles of perfectly prepared forms and would have laughed then if I was able to stay awake past 10:30.Good luck today and call me if you need a sanity check. I love you and am glad that you are my kids mom. We are the luckiest to have you!!!