I Will Not Cry

6 Mar

I am going to try to get through this without letting a tear slide down my face. I can’t promise they won’t fill up my eyes but I will try to hold them in there until I’ve at least published this.

I just want to brag about my friends.  I feel so very lucky to have such great buddies.  They brighten my days and spoil me with their love.  I know I may not always get to talk to them as often as I would like but when I do it’s so much fun and I always feel less-stressed after our conversations.  I’m so glad they don’t give up on me when I don’t call for awhile. I couldn’t imagine my life or my family’s life without you in it.

Lately, I’ve been feeling really bad about how things are now with a good college friend I had.  She was even in our wedding and was a great friend and it makes me sad to think that we just lost touch.  It’s really my fault.  She got married about two years ago and I completely forgot to send a present or even a card.  It happened around the time I found out baby number 2 was on the way and I just got caught up in myself and now I can’t forgive myself.  I didn’t get a Christmas card from her in 2005 but then one came this past Christmas and I just lost it.  Now, every day that goes by I want to call her and pour my heart out to her telling her what I jerk I am and asking for her forgiveness.

DARN IT!  A little tear got out!  It’s made it to my cheek and now is creeping down my neck!  SNEAKY TEAR!

Oh well, I do plan on calling her – I just don’t want to be a big, blubbering fool and her be on the other end of the phone thinking, “do I really want this psycho back in my life?”

All I can do now is thank my friends who allow this psycho to be in their lives now – I only hope I am as good a friend to you as you are to me.

4 Responses to “I Will Not Cry”

  1. the real ~Roxann~ March 6, 2007 at 11:44 pm #

    You know, Nikki, I know exactly what you mean. I have friends just like this. Unfortunately, I think sometimes life get in the way. It's not like anyone really ever means to lose touch with someone special to you….it just happens. I would be willing to bet that if you called….she'd be overjoyed to hear from you. (And it couldn't hurt to send a belated gift…..)

  2. gummibunny March 7, 2007 at 8:45 pm #

    You should definitely call. I have an old friend who has totally ignored me in recent months (years?), and I've gotten my feelings pretty hurt about it. But if she were to call tonight, I'm almost sad to say I'd be glad to hear from her and we'd probably pick up where we left off.

  3. Anna March 9, 2007 at 6:08 pm #

    I agree that you should call. You know, she could've called you too and maybe she feels terrible about it as well. I don't know if you need to apologize profusely- life does get in the way! Plus, isn't it fun to hear from someone you haven't heard from in a long time? A few months ago, Chris Lindsey (Julie Odom-Lindsey's husband) called me out of the blue. It was so great to catch up! I know they're busy with one kid and another on the way and I was so thankful to catch up with them. We used to be good friends- even visited them for a whole week in Boston! Who knows when we'll talk again? I am still glad I got the call.

  4. Are You ZhaZha? March 9, 2007 at 9:50 pm #

    I hate to admit this but I still haven't made the call! Every time I go to do it a kid starts screaming. I have to just do it already! I will write an update as soon as I do though…thanks for all the encouragement friends!

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